In all seriousness, though, I'm back... I suppose. And I owe an explanation as to why I just up and disappeared like I did (TwT my signature pic is gone, I am not amused.) First off, the fangame I'm making. It's definitely not canceled. I mean, I love my baby. Even I play my own case from time to time just to see Vazquez call Franny flatchest. But I had to stop. I had to stop this. The forums, the fangame, everything. It was going to a point where it was interfering with my life. I'm not talking an addiction, but it was certainly not healthy at all to be obsessing over my fancases.
Second, well... at the time I decided to leave, it wasn't my best time. Things happened. Some my fault, others not. And I still refuse to let go of how I was basically told to STFU just because I didn't like Mega Man Legends. From a "moderator." What's up with that? If you don't like what I say, too bad. But you had no right to warn me and threaten to ban me. But enough of that, it's in the past. I felt I was being a nuisance and a bother, which would also explain why no one wanted to help me with a couple of sprite edits, like a fix for Vazquez just being nice with no cigar. A few members of the community seemed to have problems with me- I could just tell from their behavior towards me. That, and other factors, such as the cancelling of AAI2, severely discouraged me, and made me retcon and abandon one key plot point I was very interested in bringing for Case 2 of Justice and Truth (Stanley.) So overall, I was turned off by a lot of stuff. Trust me: I do want to go back to my fangame. I honestly do. I love that project and it's definitely NOT left my mind. But I just couldn't at the time. I had too much stuff in my head. The treatment I thought I was getting... But who knows? Maybe I was too sensitive and volatile at the time to analyze. Maybe I still am right at this very moment. But you know what? I don't really give a f*** anymore. I've learned, through humiliations and pains these last few months, to accept myself as I am, weaknesses and all. To say I'm sorry to myself for being so weak at times. I'm a sensible guy. Sentimental too. I sometimes let go of logic and common sense, but I always find my way back. And that's fine.
And lastly, as per usual, my life. It hit a new low at the time. My father was out of a job. My mother was very ill. I had my Master's degree to attend to (I have now made it a point to simply keep the fact to myself, so I will no longer mention my schooling or grades.) I've been really swamped in schoolwork. I mean, it's a master of humanities. You'd think I would at least have breathers. But the classes are so intense, I need moments of not doing anything, or gaming, and stuff just to relax. Even now, I'm in a royal mess. This last trimester has been the hardest so far. And I START THESIS NEXT AUGUST. OH, F*** ME. -w- Our finances were sucking. A lot. And I also had to deal with a lot of family problems. I'll spare you the details. And then my tragic Christmas. Last December, I lost my uncle: he drowned in a lake. The first day of his getting a new boat due to Social Security paying in. His son-in-laws were saved: he told them to swim to shore. He, however... was trapped in the boat. The body was found six days later. And then after that, we had to endure even MORE days without the body due to forensic procedures, as it was the scene of a crime. It was later ruled as an accident. At least with my grandmother (God rest her soul) I was prepared. But this? It was... ugh. I had several anxiety attacks I could only alleviate by playing Skyrim at the time. I would often sit in the mortuary in one of their chairs, boot the laptop, tell society to go f*** itself and play. I wanted to be left alone. It was hard to deal with it- and I wasn't even the victim. I don't think we'll ever get over it.
So there you have it. I'm still alive. I just had to prioritize the more important stuff first.
I'd like to apologize to Tap, first. He made such awesome work on the logos and cover art, only to have me disappear for more than a year. I can't even remember if the signature pic was hosted by you or me. If you were hosting it and had it removed in a ragequit due to my disappearance, I understand completely. I'm really sorry. Second, to the rest of you. I'm sorry I left like I did. But do understand, please. I had to deal with things. I couldn't tolerate the sarcastic attitude I was getting from one or two people. If I ever did something wrong to you, I'm really sorry. I've grown a lot since then. I was too egotistical, too proud, too abhorrently douchebaggy. I thought I was the s*** when in reality I was being an ass**** to most of you.
I'm very sorry about everything.
A trophy for Aya and Parsee.
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